though i am extremely proud of myself for being able to push through this day’s insanities, i am so humbled by His mercy. the multiple flight delays, back-to-back meetings, and the planning for more back-to-back meetings this week were SO frustrating and discouraging. i’m still extremely anxious right now and even more confused, but today’s events were definitely a lesson learned. honestly, in the beginning of the quarter, i thought i could handle everything by myself, but as the weeks went on and the meetings got longer, the events tougher and the workload bigger, i realize that truly, truly i cannot live life depending on myself. His grace is immeasurable, His mercy undoubtedly never ending. i am not capable to handle all of life’s curveballs and struggles and misunderstandings by my lonesome. thank God.
i love college because being away for three months at a time heals all the wounds back home.
i remember richard being so excited that i was leaving to college my first year; we had been fighting every day for the last week before i left to UCLA. we didn’t really talk much for the first couple months i was away, but occasionally, i would receive phone calls and texts during class from him asking for essay help or just “how are u?? mom and dad r lame” texts. it was always awkward when i came back from breaks and we were forced to talk face-to-face, but as the year went on and i visited, we started fighting less and hanging out more. having overlapping friend groups and going to KBC together every sunday and friday helped a lot.
anyway, my brother and i hung out every day for the last four days grabbing boba (we went to verde three days in a row and got the same thing…hah), breaking traffic laws (i’m a bad influence, my mom would kill me if she heard the “driving advice” from 18-year-old, licenseless me), and making sub-par butter chicken (i chopped up some chicken and mixed it with some packaged sauce from safeway and he got naan from the tandoori cafe near the home). i help him with his college essays (he’s submitted half of his applications, who knew they were so expensive?) and he drives me around and we make up excuses for each other when my parents get frustrated at us and wow i’m so thankful!
he’s a good kid and i’m really glad that we were able to become friends at the least before he left for college! :)
fall/winter in the bay >
the weather is perfect; the sun is out, but the air is crisp. the leaves are turning red and yellow and brown and wow it confettis the ground. everything here is warm. bay yay way hey!
none of my parents’ credit cards were working when my brother was paying for his UC applications so i had to pay for them and now i’m in more debt than i already was. but richard finished his apps and his essays seriously mirror mine and they are SO GOOD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i have faith in him!!
richard, we love you!